Thursday, July 28, 2005

Not Ready

Ok, so I'm 24! ( will be this August,anyway! )

So why does that makes ALL the parents I know hyperventilate and start running around looking for "a suitable boy" for me?

I mean, WHY?

Am I now too old for any guy to wanna get married to me? Do I even care?

Why don't people ever ask me if I even want to get married?

I was talking to a married ( happily married) friend of mine and she was asking me what I have against marriage.

The answer is ... NOTHING!

I don't have anything against marriage, but really, I don't have anything for it either.

I asked her to tell me why she enjoyed being married so much. Other than sex of course, and anyway, I've heard that its totally overrated!

She told me about companionship, sharing, caring blah blah...

So her parents chose well.She's just lucky. How will I know that I'm gonna be as lucky as she is and get a guy who will be half as good even? After 19 years of living with my parents, they don't even know who I am, how are they gonna know what kinda guy they'll find for me?

And about falling in love, well, what about it?

I've trusted in my heart and been proved wrong once, who's telling it won't happen again?

I'm just not ready to risk it anymore.

7 comments:

Lost in trance... said...

"And about falling in love, well, what about it?"

ppl react to "falling out" of luv in two different ways...one is like you just said, to feel averse to it....but me, after i broke up, i couldnt wait to "fall in" luv again...

maybe its that feeling...of pure bliss...to attain that you'd take any risk?....a romantic notion huh? knowingly walking towards sweet pain :)

Sonia said...

to Lost in Trance: "I couldn't wait to fall in love again" , I think that's what they call a rebound. That happened to me too! Still not really sure if it was worth it!

Lost in trance... said...

how long does a 'rebound' last? somehow cant allow myself to agree that staying out of luv is different from hiding away...

Rahul said...

marraige is much bigger than ephemeral love or sex; at least i think so. Think marraige and i think Ronnie and Nancy, I think E.K.Nayanar and Sharada teacher, I think my uncle and aunt... A handful of examples, for me, can offset the daily barrage of fleeting relationships!
You gotta do it to live a full life!

Lazith Aziz said...

Once out of it ..its nice to be single again..what I would sincerely advice you is look around for more "opportunities" but never get tied to any relation , just hang on things will fall in place...please dont walk towards that pain again...ITS JUST PAIN AND NOTHING ELSE...i pity all those who carry on fighting day n night...thank GOD that we are all free birds and single again.

Lazith Aziz said...

cant help saying something to this.....I SHOUT "BE A SINGLE" WE ARE BETTER THAT WAY....take it from me...esp after a break up we enjoy everymoment as you have never lived like this till now...
you will see a "creative youself" in everything you see....

everthing will look bright and beautiful once we are out of it...I know you are experiencing that now...you are free ..what else one need?? No questions to be asked ...no answers to be given...
as "I went here ...." " I was there"...."Why dont u come..??"

This is life...I say ...from heart.

Walk against all these crap(yes!now I will call it crap)...till time give you something ...dont just be longing for this....well if it was fate that made you and me exist till here...it will take it forward with much bundles of excitement ahead....for sure!

Listen to Zara Zara from RHTDM...and just relax!!

May be a bad song suggestion but nothing else comes to me right now :-))

Joker said...

interesting and the comments were even more interesting.
its each person'sperspective rahul, i know loads of people who are living a full life as singles. and some who i know quite well too - some of my best friends, they dont ponder about not having married or anything of that sort. they are busy working and then having fun. Again Aziz its a matter of perspectives. And of course choices arising from that!

all the best sonia with everything! *HUGS*