and the walls go up again

I thought you were a friend

I'd begun to believe it

I'd begun to feel comfortable

And then you said it like it is.

It made me cry, it hurt

But it set me straight alright.

The walls are up, the swords drawn

And I fight to lose...a friendship.

The week that was

Back in Dxb.

Bahrain was boring, mind-numbingly boring.

And tiring.

Got back home around 11:30pm on Thursday.

In the flight the guy sitting next to me was on a business trip as well. He started talking to me and I reciprocated. He was quite boring, working as a banker for some russian bank and all.

But I didn't have anything to read and had an hour to kill, so I thought, what's the harm in chatting!

In the end, he asked me for my number, and I didn't know how to refuse, though I didn't want to keep in touch with him.

What are you supposed to say to a guy you've been chatting with for an hour when he says (not asks) "hey, give me your number and I'll give you a call sometime."

How can you avoid that and not be rude?

I gave him my card, and will just have to make excuses to not meet I suppose. Hope he just doesn't call!

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On Friday, I went to the Yas Marina Circuit. We were being trained as marshals for the F1 Grand Prix. It was quite boring, cos they repeated most of the stuff they'd said in the first session (this was the second). But I got to stand on the track, which was quite cool! Took pics and all. :D

Waiting for Ferrari World to open. That is gonna be one awwwesome theme park!

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On the job front, I got offered one, but it's in Mumbai.

And I don't think I want to live there. If I have to move, I'd prefer to move to somewhere in Europe, I don't want to live in India.

God, are you messing with me?

Is this your idea of a joke?

Cos it's not funny!

Traveling for work.

I'm in Bahrain now.

Arrived last night.

The plane was delayed for over an hour after we boarded, so I had to sit in the plane all that time doing nothing(flying economy of course, company won't pay for business class).

The flight wasn't playing a movie cos it was just a 55min flight, if that. There was a creepy looking steward, middle-aged arab dude, who looked like he'd been pouring people drinks and pushing trolleys for way longer than he intended to. I'd have felt sorry for him if he hadn't looked so darn mean!

And I dreamt about him at night! I dreamed that I was in my hotel room sleeping, and was woken up with a breakfast tray on my bed by the flight attendent! In the dream, I was freaked out, cos I'd locked the room, and was panicking cos the guy got into the room (even if it was just to serve breakfast).

Obviously, I hatttte traveling for work, hate staying in cold hotel rooms and am pretty worried about my security at these places after what happened to me in Oman.

In Oman, I was woken up at 6:30am by someone who said I'd been offered a complimentary massage by the hotel by a "male masseuse" and that the massage would be in my room.

Right!

And this was in a world-class 5 star hotel with branches all over the world!

The hotel had that guy kicked out, the duty manager came and personally talked to me, telling me that the guy thought I was a flight attendant (don't know what that has to do with it) and thought he could get lucky.

They apologized to me profusely and offered me a whole lot of things to placate me, but the damage was done of course.

How did he get my room number? Had he followed me? What if I do get followed on the way to my room? How long will it be before anyone notices that I'm missing?

I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of hotel rooms and boring conferences and the whole drill.

I want out!

GODDDDDDD, are you listening??!

Tipsy moments

tere bajo’n ni lagda aye jeevay…hanju hun mere su’k de na-i ve…jad tak mainu tu na thee vain…tad’ tak naeeo balna main deeway............................

*siiiiiiigh*

Dear God,

Please give me a new job! PLLLEAAASE!

I'm feeling utterly and hopelessly depressed in my current one.

I'm earning peanuts, my self esteem is lower than I thought possible, and I hate the guy I'm reporting to.

I'm not cut out for this job, for this kind of work.

I feel completely and utterly useless, not to mention helpless!

So please, pleaaaase! Give me a new job!

Thank you.

S

No time to Stop!

So yes, the road trip.

Of the 7 emirates of the UAE, we ended up driving through 6!

It was crazy, tiring and a lot of fun!

There were 10 of us, including one 6 month old baby girl who was the cutest thing ever!

I was the fairy godmom who bestowed her with wishes of travel around the globe, so it was quite fetching that I was part of her first road trip! :D

And mannn! What a road trip it was!

The initial idea was to drive to Ras Al khaimah. This would take us through Sharjah, Ajman and Umm Al Quwain. We lunched at the Al Waha restaurant at the Banyan Tree, where I met the most friendliest staff ever! I have not seen such genuine smiles on hotel staff ever before! Quite commendable! Wonder how they keep their staff so happy! Maybe it's pot! ;o)

We got back to dxb around 8pm and then suddenly someone had this crazy idea to drive to Abu Dhabi.

And the rest of the crazy gang agreed. Thought it'd be great fun to lunch at RAK and sup in Abu Dhabi. So off we went in the opposite direction. I got back home at 2:30 in the morning and was obviously, exhauuuusted!

I slept till noon and have been pottering around the house since, doing laundry, reading the paper, watering the plants and browsing blogs and whatnot. It feels good to just stay in and relax once in a while.

And after the emotionally, financially and physically exhausting Delhi and Kerala trips and this crazy road trip... I'm looking forward to a little peace and quiet.

Although, I have a baby shower to plan for Friday, and have another road trip to Fujairah ( the only emirate in the uae that we missed out on) that we intend to do a couple of weeks later.

Not to mention work!

I guess some people are just not cut out for peace and quiet!

need a break from my break!

I just got back from Kerala on Wednesday.

I had to attend two weddings, socialize with people I didn't know and didn't really want to know, felt alone and alienated and extremely uncomfortable.

I also caught the cold, as usual, cos of all the allergens floating around in the air on kerala (dunno what it is, but everytime I go there, I get violently ill with the flu and it lasts until I land at dxb airport!). So my nose is all raw and red around the edges and swollen. Sucks obviosuly.

There are way too many emotions I'm feeling and it's quite overwhelming in it's negativity - everything around me in India has left me feeling very unsettled and disappointed.

I'm not sure what to do to change things.

You know how sometimes life completely bogs you down and you have no idea what to do and which way to turn?

This is one of those times.

So I do what I do best.

Ignore it. Shove it under the carpet until I need to look at it again.

I know it's not the best way, but I don't know what else to do.

I leave for a road trip in a half hour or so.

Will try to dissipate all my worries into the arabian sea.

Adios!