Some guy is gonna come to "see"me today.
And there's nothing I can do about it other than refuse to serve him tea (or any other beverage).
I've had a million fights with my mum about this of course.
It's become a routine now, she starts talking about a guy who seems "marriage material" and I get irritated and then we're off.
" Ma will you please leave me alone. I can make my own decisions."
"You're not getting any younger, ALL of your friends are married and some even have kids. What about you? How do you plan on living by yourself? You'll be singled out, you'll be all alone. You can't live like that, what will I tell everyone else when they ask me why you're still single, it is unheard of in our family, I cannot bear to talk to anyone now, everyone is asking me why I'm not getting you married off... "
I'm a disgrace to my family. Being 25 and unmarried is the worst thing that could happen to a girl apprently.
I've explained it to her a million times already! I can't do this.
But she still nags, worries and keeps surfing matrimonial sites.
And now they want me to meet this guy tonight.
I DON'T WANT TO MEET ANYONE LIKE THIS!
I can't explain why, cos I know that a lot of people meet this way and get married and they're fine or whatever. But when anyone tries to set me up like this, it depresses me.
I know that "everyone else does it"and that "it's not such a big deal" but it IS a big deal for ME.
Cos this is not what I want. I'm not really sure what I want, but it's not this.
I'm feeling irritated, worried, angry, alone, and so damn depressed.
I need a break. I neeed to take a break off of all this and just get up and go somewhere where my parents won't keep nagging me like this. I need to clear my head a bit.
I think I'm gonna ask my boss for a week off and go to India and be with my friends.